This week isn’t a book post.
I’ve decided to focus and write about my writing. Which I hardly do, but now felt like a good time because this is a big step that I’m taking in my writing journey. It’s something that I’ve never done before and I honestly feel like I’m giving up on this WIP by doing this, even though I know I’m not. I love this story to death.
So I’ve come to the decision to put aside my queer fantasy WIP that I was working on. I’ll still be writing it, but on the side. It wont be the main WIP I’m working on. I love this story and I’ve finally figured out where I’m going with it and what the plot is and I enjoy writing it. It’s just hard to force me to write it when I’m not feeling creative and my muse has abandoned me. Instead of slowly writing and watching my daunting list of story ideas grow larger, I’ve decided to continue to write it when the inspiration hits and focus on one of my other projects.
This new WIP I’m plotting right now means a bunch to me, especially since I figured out what I wanted to do with it. I’ve always been thinking about writing this story but I think I’ve always been too scared because it would force me to evaluate my gender identity and what it means to me and that was . . . yeah, not something I wanted to do because of personal reasons.
But now I’m ready to write this story and I know what I want to say. I want to write this character for the me that was, is, too scared to be themselves. I’ve already outlined the first three chapters and so far I’m loving this story.
This one isn’t YA like my other WIPs I have, this one is new adult. Which is also a change, but I feel a good one as I’m going into that stage of my life and facing all those problems.
I’m super excited to start writing this story and share my queer nonbinary pal Darcy and their crisis with dating, money, and looking how they feel with the rest of the world. This is my child and I will protect them with my heart but at the same time, you know I have to let them suffer a bit (I know, I’m a horrible person.)
My goal is to put all my hopes and fears into here and send it out into the world hoping people find themselves in this story.
That . . . was really hard to write and admit and write for people to see.